This morning I woke up feeling frustrated. I was so excited earlier in the week after an inspirational, motivating workshop I took on the weekend (Thank you Karen at Rock The Stage!). I have so much I have worked on, so much vision of where I am going and so much confidence on what I can do, but then my daily life activities take over. Routines of a busy life with kids, pets, family, friends, and home all require action from me. Groceries to buy, meals to prepare, house to clean, bills to pay, kids to chauffeur, mail to sort, information to organize – ever notice how much paper work there is? – crazy! Unforeseen events pop-up that require my attention, living true to my values and priorities, my daily actions are altered temporarily.
I know that each one of these actions are in alignment with my values and priorities, these are what my life is about and I hold dear to my heart…. Just sometimes….every once in a while…..I feel frustrated! I feel torn between doing all the routine stuff that I know I must to make my life work and doing all the actions to align with my dreams. I get frustrated. I secretly dream about the long ago days of my 20’s that I wasted being lost, trying to find myself and not doing all the things I want to do right now!! Imagine if back then when I had so much time, imagine if I had been living my full authentic self! Of course I wouldn’t go back. Really I wouldn’t. I love my life, love my kids, my husband, my family, my friends, - all of it. Everything I do – I love it! I would not trade one moment for anything I have lived before. I am just frustrated....
So my frustration is not for what I don’t have, not for what I am not living, and not for anything that someone else is or is not doing. My frustration is about me. When I get frustrated it is because I am not living in the moment, I am living in the future. Frustration is about the future, it is about what has not happened yet. We need to be somewhere else, do something else, and get something done which is not what we are doing in the moment. It is also about trust. Trusting that you are in alignment with exactly where you want to be, where you are meant to be. Trusting that all things happen in their own perfect time.
So with that thought I take a big sigh (sigh) and let the frustration go, I look at those sweet faces all around me and see them in the moment. In this moment I serve them the best of me and I love all of them, in complete alignment with my values & priorities that I have chosen, in complete alignment with the authentic me. Everything has its time.